Hello June!!

Hello June! Oh how I am ready for this month!! It's pretty jam packed with lots of fun, doctors appointments, family and friends & me time as well. 

I'll be heading back down to Charleston the second week of June for my 2nd appt with behavioral medicine (gotta make sure I'm not cray cray you know (; ) and meet with my doctor again for any last minute questions & concerns, meet with anesthesia (which is always my favorite part since I work with anesthesia it's the easiest part to me), & sign consent forms (aka signing my life away). I'm very ready for this appointment, as my pain is increasing becoming harder to manage everyday.. It's a struggle but I'm not giving up my fight.. EVER! I'll be getting my official surgery date then as well, even though I have my TBD date.. My official date will make it SO real... I'm very ready for this. Anxious. Nervous. Excited. Scared. Ready. Not ready. Along with just about every other adjective you can think of in the book, that's me right now. I'm very ready though.. It's almost time & I honestly never thought this day would get here but it has. One reason I never thought it wouldn't be here is because I truly believed I'd be better before this day, but God has much larger plans for me & I can't wait to see what those plans are.. What's in store for me; the ride is going to be one hell of a ride but it'll be sweet & amazing. God is great!! 

June is also an amazing month because it's my birthday month.. WAHOO! I'll be spending part of my birthday month with my family on a vacation to ARUBA!! This trip is OH SO NEEDED & I absolutely cannot wait! I love family vacations. Spending time with my family is such a blessing, making those memories with my loved ones & my favorite little cousins who I adore & are more like my siblings than cousins.. The fun we have when we're all together is epic.

June is going to be amazing! Family vacations, family time, friend time already reserved to go paint(my favorite past time), surgery dates & farewell parties for my pancreas! I'll continue to stay as active as I have been, or my body will let me continue to be until my surgery date.  As my moto has been; I am building the strongest, healthiest body possible to get me through the toughest surgery of my life, so I can ROCK this recovery with flying colors!! I want to go into this surgery the healthiest I can to make it as easy as possible on my body to recovery, as well as to make it easier on me to get back into shape once I get the OK from my physicians to start being active again.  I don't plan on sitting on my butt too long licking my wounds & moping around.  I want to take this recovery by it's tail & show it who's boss from the beginning to the end!! All I need to do now is stay in tip top shape until my surgery date, which is now all up to God & prayers!

Please keep those thankful prayers coming & special prayers for my health in this next month to get me through until my surgery is scheduled!! I don't need any unnecessary surgeries prior to having my TP/AIT! 

I'm so thankful to EVERYONE who have been sending me prayers daily & continue to pray for me. I wouldn't be where I am today without your support and love & I just want you to know that if I don't tell you personally, they are greatly appreciated & felt!
~xo T

Control..

We may not always understand the struggle at the moment but it's truth will reveal itself when ready! God is in control! #amen  Releasing that control to God is a very frightening thing.  Now being in control of your life is a very frightening thing; or at least feeling like you're not in control of your life.. the truth of the matter is, you are completely in control of it.  God knows your path, every single bit of it & he will guide you to the exact place you need to be!  It's already been planned out for you.  No need to fret on the little things (although TRUST ME, it is very hard not too at times) everything will be A-OK! God is with you through this entire journey in this crazy thing we call life & he will bring us to the right place were suppose to be, at the right time!! Keep that faith!! <3

Blog Virginity!!

I said it!! This is my official post… It won’t that substantial just because it’s pretty late, and I took too long trying to figure out just how to work this dang site!! HA!  I have started this blog as somewhat of a therapy for me, but also for some documentation as well for the upcoming months, years & so forth with my health condition.  As many of you already know I have a pretty chronic health condition, that unfortunately isn’t going away… CP – otherwise known as Chronic Pancreatitis.. and with that I’ve got a few other issues.. chronic anemia, because of the chronic inflammation that won’t go away within my body, Sphincter of Oddi dysfunction, a complication from having my gallbladder removed & chronic migraines (not a complication from my CP but a complication all in itself) lol.  Along with all of these issues, I have a LONG list of medications I have to take daily, along with a nice long list of meds I’m allergic too.. along with developing a lovely allergy to tegaderm this year with my PICC line I’ve had inserted.. something no one wants to develop.. (for those who don’t know what tegaderm is, it’s a dressing similar to a band-aid that is clear & pretty large to cover a sterile dressing or IV) Well it looks like I’ve rambled enough tonight.. I’ll update more tomorrow & go into more details about my condition, surgery etc tomorrow. :)
Goodnight for now. XO
Tiff